Recently, I got to share how God is transforming me from the inside out. (Notice the present tense?) I started a journey to (let's be honest) just lose weight almost 4 years ago. I did it. I lost the weight. Actually, I was the fittest I had ever been (on the outside.) I started the journey weighing 185 lbs and got as low as 128 lbs (a number I hadn't seen...well, since I was a teeny bopper).
But, want to hear more honesty? I was still concerned more about the outside than the inside. Consumed. Yes. That is a much better word. Everything I did...ate...didn't eat...consumed me. And the compliments I received from the physical transformation? They were probably genuine, but they were feeding the wrong part of me. They were feeding my flesh. My pride.
God decided enough was enough. He had work for me to do. If I was so wrapped up in myself, how was I going to fulfill His purpose? I wasn't. I couldn't. I needed a perspective shift. I needed to fix my eyes on Jesus.
He started orchestrating new people to enter my life and others to leave. The scales (no pun intended) started falling off my eyes and collecting dust in my bathroom. I experienced His passion for people in the depths of my spirit. My heart was breaking for what broke His....the lost (those who don't know Him or are living free in and through Him).
So, began my REAL transformation. I was now in a position to start really hearing from the Lord and moving forward in His calling for my life and that of my family. He filled me with fresh purpose and passion and showed me my next steps in the journey.
I am now in a place of true joy and contentment: body, spirit, mind. I love Jesus and can barely get through a day without being overwhelmed by His goodness and the opportunities of sharing that goodness with others. Each time lights a new fire within me to keep seeking, learning, growing, and sharing. I want EVERYONE I meet to find fulfillment and freedom like I have found.
It is possible. There is hope. And it starts with a man named Jesus.